There's been so much going on I really don't know where to start. Can I just be real? My brain hurts. I don't know where to go with this post. I have so much swirling around in my mind that I'm having a hard time just resting in God. I know the struggles we are experiencing are only temporary and it frustrates me that I let things get to me. My eternal perspective is sucking right now. Would it be crazy to say that I am so grateful for what God is teaching me in this? Man, this makes me all the more thankful for Christ.
Something crazy:
Many of you know that we don't have any legal rights to Avery. Our lawyer dropped the case last December. We haven't had a birth certificate or anything for her and have been unable to get healthcare for her because of it. It reached a point where we were both at a loss as to what to do (what do you do when even the lawyer can't get ahold of a birth certificate?). And then an amazing woman with a big heart (Beth if you are reading this, thank you, thank you, thank you... Your heart and love for kids is rare and beautiful) showed up at my bible study (100 percent convinced this was a God thing) and said she dealt with guardianship cases all the time and she could help us. Long story short, we have a home study on Monday at 1 and a court hearing for guardianship on December 12! AND a birth certificate is on the way! God is so good.
We need a lot of prayer to go along with this situation. Once we are guardians we have to apply to foster, and from there we move on to adoption. We cannot leave the state or this house with her until it's final. I suppose this is where a lot of my struggle lies. The amount of money for school and adoption seems unattainable. BUT THATS A LIE! It's not too hard for God. I know that He is in control, and I know that He is good!
Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Bottom-line: life is hard but I am thankful for the struggle. I am thankful for a God who cares enough about me to continually pursue me and use these challenges to draw me closer to Him and to conform me to the image of His Son...
James 1:2-4 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
